::last:: / Friday, February 16, 2007
i know i haven't been posting. maybe it's stress, maybe it's because i just don't feel like it. i have got so much to blog about. but i cannot bring myself to do that.
no matter how i see it, i reall feel like pochahontas and mulan. it's obvious, but at the same time not.
i went to ny ystd. it wasn't as great as i expected it to be. but still, there's still this connection, this sense of belonging. it just makes me cry as every memory i have there floods in again. and then there's this person, who i am seriously pissed with. sometimes i really want to strangle her and tell her, "can you be real for once?! who am i to you?!" go and die. she tells me, i don't trust her...i don't think she's good...you see?[i told you she's like that]. eff. you know really, if i ain't that nice i would just go, "how about you? **** off."
man. 110 is a really nice class. but it's far too competitive. everybody wants to be popular. and i don't deny that i don't wanna be. i want to. i guess i'm on good terms with everybody, but not the popular popular. mmm. it's tiring, like everybody has positioned herself in the rat race, those leading last time sometimes just want to shrink back and be a nobody.
like me.
go and dominate i don't care. you think you can cover your act? no. cos i blew the cover already, i'm just playing along, trying to see what else you can do. because people like you, cannot last long. you're not fit for the role..i know.and just to tell you. people really make my day. mm hmm. thanks to those people below:
jieru.shiren.may.sherilyn.sarah.dee.karen.chocolate.ness.jin.made my day means made me really really happy. thanks once again. you people always stick by me, no matter what.:)
oh yes. jin gave me a shin goon tofu doll. super KAWAII! it's exactly it!! woots. and there's slots to put pictures. however i dono what to put yet. haha. i'm going to bring it to school, and show it to deenie. hehe, she loves shin goon too. and last time she lent me a shin goon wallet card (merci!) and she said it was her lucky charm. and apparently it only works for one thing. getting what you want, specifically your cca. hehes!
and guess what, it TOTALLY did!
i wanted drama really really badly. it worked for deenie, and in the end, it worked for me too! way to go shin goon, i knew you love me. :))
stop acting fake, cos i know you're really not like that. stop sucking up. stop b***hing. we know who you really are. serves you right for not following my suit. dropping out whenever you want to. i have my powers too. and i can make you out..too.i love elds! it's really cool! except that i think i am the worse actress out of them. but anway, i'm prepared to do stagehandling for whole 4 years. blahh. and karen's gonna stick by me. hehe. karen's a really nice senior, 211. so one cubians! i know who's your angels. muahhaha. and she's very unlucky lahh, she's such a nice person with a weird mortal. rather, i guess.
one cubians, i think you know who.
you know seriously, i really want to be in another class. 111, 112, 113. they are really nice classes. why? cos 111 has really nice bffs there, 112 has sam, celine, RUBY! woots. and 113 has the whole bunch of nyps-ers. yay!
i'm using a new mouse now. it's really cool. it's laser technology! :) and it's seriously sharp. muacks. CNY is coming, and i'm going to steal 100 bucks from the whole collected ang pow to buy stuff. muahaha. ooooohhhh ooooops! i DON'T HAVE CLOTHES. sheeeeshhh. oh great.
i got alot ALOT of homework, and i know i'm going to die soon. cheer people cheer! he.s. and i seriously miss the boys. but anyway, before i end this post i got 2 more things to say...
sometimes i really don't see why people like you live in the world. you think people like you, let me see, no. people cannot stand you. are you a nice person? your "laugh" just blows your cover. he.houses. i'm in HADLEY! and in rj, hadley (purple) and harlett(black) join to form the house: hadley harlett. so it's really cool! purple and black, the shirt rocks. i saw.
but guess who's in harlett?!!!! GND! guess, and i'll tell you next post. the house in rjc are as such:
- waddle bailey (ack)
- hadley harlett(yays!)
- moor tarbet (it sounds nicer the other way round, and there's smth interesting about this>>)
- richardson morrison (this is really cliched)
- buckle buckley (really coincidental)
arrrrhs . MOOR TARBET. this is so ironic and coincidental!! grace is in TARBET. jd is in MOOR. muahhaa. grace is red and i bet she's laughing with joy inside. they will meet in the same house. muahaha.
but the one you can really LAUGH at is THAT person in harlett. really really coincidental. mmmmannn.
oh yes, speaking about jd, i always think about bishan, j8, moelc, and the MRT. i think i'm seriously cursed. NO MATTER WHEN i take mrt from bishan to bedok, i always see perverse things. couples making out, eff. kissing, hugging, holding houses, and that electricity spark in their eyes. ow. NOT THAT I WANT TO SEE right? it's just everywhere. the most perverse thing i've ever seen is...
omgoodness, should i tell. maybe i should. :) it's to freak you all out. oh wait, since it's in black and white, it won't freak you out. you should just see it yourself. but anyways..:)
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there was this woman who had really big b**bs. ok. and she was wearing a skimpy, thin, low cut, spaghetti shirt. ahem. annd the BAD thing was, she was short. shorter than me. sooooo, you know, when i look down i see..that. ahem. anyways. there was this ummm, how to say mid-20s man, who was TALL. taller than me at least. and i was like, *look at him*, then turn away. he was looking at that woman's *ahem*. yess. and i was like stuck in the middle of them. so irritating.
luckliy i found a place. the corner seat. but it was almost as bad, there was a couple standing beside me making out. so there.
i feel so dirty. and ack-ish.
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oh wells, happy cny everybody. collect ang-pows, blackjack money, and eat lots of bak-kwa and abalone, k? hehe. feel rich.
oh man, i got so much homework to finish and i don't know how to finish. :((( try lahhhs. i think i'm going to fail all my SAs. hmm.
wishes:
- be nominated for student leader. muahas.
- be nominated for psl. i think i want this more.
- be part of elds ora! ahh!
- act better. i know the seniors hate me. muahas.
- finish all my projects...in excellence. i NEED this
- pass my SAs with flying colours. THIS, I WOULD DIE FOR IT.
- kill someone. and i kow just who i want to kill.
you know what, sometimes, i just want to kill you. good bye and good riddance.
/ihopped at
7:32 PM
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